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10

Dec

Why We Travel.

Incredibly beautiful.

Abroad is the place where we stay up late, follow impulse and find ourselves as wide open as when we are in love. We live without a past or future, for a moment at least, and are ourselves up for grabs and open to interpretation. We even may become mysterious — to others, at first, and sometimes to ourselves — and, as no less a dignitary than Oliver Cromwell once noted, “A man never goes so far as when he doesn’t know where he is going.”

^ This describes a lot of what I’ve been thinking about recently.

And since travel is, in a sense, about the conspiracy of perception and imagination, the two great travel writers, for me, to whom I constantly return are Emerson and Thoreau (the one who famously advised that “traveling is a fool’s paradise,” and the other who “traveled a good deal in Concord”). Both of them insist on the fact that reality is our creation, and that we invent the places we see as much as we do the books that we read. What we find outside ourselves has to be inside ourselves for us to find it. Or, as Sir Thomas Browne sagely put it, “We carry within us the wonders we seek without us. There is Africa and her prodigies in us.”

So, if more and more of us have to carry our sense of home inside us, we also — Emerson and Thoreau remind us — have to carry with us our sense of destination. The most valuable Pacifics we explore will always be the vast expanses within us, and the most important Northwest Crossings the thresholds we cross in the heart. The virtue of finding a gilded pavilion in Kyoto is that it allows you to take back a more lasting, private Golden Temple to your office in Rockefeller Center.

19

May

Being home is so wonderful. It’s great to know you can pick up where you left off with your friends. And it’s wonderful to know that we can all love each other, and embrace each other even more when we can all share more and more of ourselves as we discover things about ourselves, as we grow older and experience real things and real emotions. No fear, no shame, no holding back. And, as always, we always maintain our code of honor, of loyalty, of trust. We all slip up, but we always get back on track. We always do.

When you actually feel like a human being, like yourself around people- around those you consider your family- you are a very lucky person indeed.  I don’t take that for granted, and I never will.

16

May

It’s late and I’m stuck in a hotel room in an unfamiliar place and I’m exhausted and hungry but without anywhere to get food at this hour and just feeling anxious and frustrated that I couldn’t make it home like I had wanted, planned, wished. And now I just feel like putting these little words up here again, since they always seem to remind me of something or give me some meaning. Over the past year they’ve just seemed to accumulate a lot of weight and a lot of facets. Don’t ask me why these seemingly unrelated words relate to my situation; they just do. No matter what’s going on, they always do.

Hard to seem won: but I was won, my lord,
With the first glance that ever—pardon me—
If I confess much, you will play the tyrant.
I love you now; but not, till now, so much
But I might master it: in faith, I lie;
My thoughts were like unbridled children, grown
Too headstrong for their mother. See, we fools!
Why have I blabb’d? who shall be true to us,
When we are so unsecret to ourselves?
But, though I loved you well, I woo’d you not;
And yet, good faith, I wish’d myself a man,
Or that we women had men’s privilege
Of speaking first. Sweet, bid me hold my tongue,
For in this rapture I shall surely speak
The thing I shall repent. See, see, your silence,
Cunning in dumbness, from my weakness draws
My very soul of counsel! stop my mouth.

02

May

Tonight.

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08

Mar

February 13

06

Mar

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field. I’ll meet you there. 

When the soul lies down in that grass, 
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language — even the phrase each other
doesn’t make any sense.

Rumi





…and it’s officially time for bed. My brain’s all jumbled up. Good night.

05

Mar

Drama Anthologies, programs, stubs, dialect work, Sasha (my trusty Ipod), one of my many half-empty bottles of Poland Springs, dregs of tea from breakfast, and let’s not forget the copious amounts of Liqui-gels I’m taking at the moment.
Funny how my life is a bit of a mess in general at the moment. This just about sums it all up.

Drama Anthologies, programs, stubs, dialect work, Sasha (my trusty Ipod), one of my many half-empty bottles of Poland Springs, dregs of tea from breakfast, and let’s not forget the copious amounts of Liqui-gels I’m taking at the moment.

Funny how my life is a bit of a mess in general at the moment. This just about sums it all up.

22

Feb

nevver:

Who does your art save?

I’ve actually been thinking about this all day…

nevver:

Who does your art save?

I’ve actually been thinking about this all day…

26

Jan

Random Acting Thoughts

Everything seems to be at a pretty good place right now.

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19

Oct

herekitty:



AMY WINEHOUSE | Harper’s Bazaar, Oct 2010 | by Bryan Adams

Well, then. Apparently, according to Angela, I am now officially on an Amy Winehouse kick. I suppose I am on enough drugs (aka copious doses of cough meds) to be her so…..

herekitty:

AMY WINEHOUSE | Harper’s Bazaar, Oct 2010 | by Bryan Adams

Well, then. Apparently, according to Angela, I am now officially on an Amy Winehouse kick. I suppose I am on enough drugs (aka copious doses of cough meds) to be her so…..